Just pouring out thoughts...

the way he walks the way he smiles the way he uses his tool to plow my field the way he chops me down like a meal the way he talks to me when hes fucking me the way he stalks me and makes me feel like im the most important thing in the entire world the way we he calls my friends and family up when i lock him off and change my numbers the way he writes the way he dresses the way he grabs me wen i try to walk away the way he never leaves messages but will keep calling until i answer the way he looks at me the way he brags about me the way he admires me but envies me the way he lets me go but doesnt let me go the way he lies and makes up stories the way he weaves his way in and out of shit especially when he has fucked up the way he pursues other women the way he threw me in the trash when his "real girlfriend" had to pay his bills the way he denied me and fronted on me before and does to this day the way he uses and abuses my trust the way he neglects me the way he idolizes things i am completely against the way he speaks the way he thinks the way he has me utterly fucked up the way he tricked my mom into liking him the way he leaves me vulnerable the way he leaves and comes back like nothing happened the way he has haunted my thoughts and my soul for twenty one months the way my baby would have looked if i had not flushed it down the toilet the way his name might not be his the way his identity might not be him the way he drives the way the way he will know but not care the way he will know but not try the way he will say but not do, its why I can't get over you.